Searching for my Tribe – Growing up gay in a Cult

There I sat.  Alone amid 250 other people, feeling as though all eyes were on me, especially Dr. Duke’s.  It was Epistles of Paul class in the Science Lecture Hall.  I have never felt such despair descend upon me like I had felt that day.  There I sat, a gay boy in a theology lecture, being told, no admonished about the perverseness of homosexuality.  Being read to, or at more precisely, from the Bible the words that would seal my fate.  That “those” men, lovers of themselves, would never inherit the Kingdom of God.  That I, on judgment day, would be cast into the Lake of Fire along with all the other sinners, that I would never be able to express my love and share my life in a way that had always felt natural to me. 

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“How are the mighty fallen! Tell it not in Gath, publish

it not in the streets of Ashkelon; lest the daughters of

the Philistines rejoice . . . How are the mighty fallen in

the midst of the battle!” (I Sam.1:19-25)

“But if ye will not do so, behold, ye have sinned against the

Lord: and be sure your sin will find you out” (Numbers 32:23).

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